My Apologies

I know I haven't written much lately and for that, I am sorry. Writing has always come very naturally to me but, when I am in pain and overwhelmed I just shut down.

The last post I wrote was the night before a surgery that was supposed to be simple. 3 surgeries combined into 1 and taking no more than 3 hours to complete. 8 1/2 hours later, it was finally done. I have since had numerous allergic reactions to pain meds that have almost led to emergency room trips. You could save I've been a little preoccupied.

However, I'm finally starting to feel more like myself. I wish I could be more independent in getting ready (showering, dressing, etc) but when your biceps have been slit open and you abdomen, it's a little challenging. I can hardly raise my arms and for maybe 15-30 seconds at a time. The strength is just going to take awhile to come back.

But, it's done. I don't ever have to go through it again. Everyday, I am one step closer to being out of the compression wraps I have to wear for 4 weeks. Sporting these bloodstained LACE (ewwww) things at school is going to be HAWT. Whatever. I've never cared what people thought before, why start now?

It's just going to take some time and I am not known for being a patient person.

On a side note, how do I tell my Dad I am getting a half sleeve and another tattoo on either my left shoulder or my collarbone? I am not a fan of the whole doing it and then asking for forgiveness later bit but, I know his approval will never come. This is MY body and MY decision, I just don't want to disrespect him. Ideas? Suggestions? Comments? Help!